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February 24th, 2009 @ 12:02am
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| what if I'm the one who's crazy |
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January 25th, 2009 @ 12:41pm
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wasted, passed out on the kitchen floor
another week gone by and I haven't been dreaming
blacked out and I can't remember exactly what I did last night
I hear stories in the morning
and I know that I'm out of control
because when I drink nothing ever matters
I missed the sunrise, could barely open my eyes
now I've got to pull myself together
right now this town really fucking tears me down
someday it will drown me in the river
I've got to learn to put the liquor on the shelf
or I might end up drowning myself
[insert some analogy about my life and this song here]
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December 7th, 2008 @ 6:38pm
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lol thanks livejournal for having the 'restore from saved draft' option because I just read an entry I was never gonna post to begin with that I wrote like a week ago and it just depressed the fuck outta me!!! well I guess not the fuck out of me but it depressed me enough to write about it for these 2 minutes. now I don't even remember what I was gonna say. something important I'm sure. oh wait yeah okay I swear to fuck sometimes I think I have a sixth sense about some shit because somehow I always know to check something on the internet or log into something that I haven't been on in a month or more b/c something about someone or something obviously changed and it's obviously going to piss me off or irritate me or or upset me or make me think about it all fucking day. lol@my life. anyway I got a [goddamn] job.
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| my heart is anywhere but here |
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November 29th, 2008 @ 5:26pm
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- had an awesome thnxgvng at sherry's. got really drunk and hung out with her and wes and tyler and lots of other people. however there was a point where I do believe wes and I became "too drunk"
- I just made the best fucking home made turkey pot pie omg srsly amazing
- I also made a twitter so add me if you have one. twitter.com/selfcheckout
- I downloaded and watched all of generation kill one day and I can't stop watching it over and over
- AND TIM MOTHER FUCKING BARRY SENT ME A MESSAGE ON MYSPACE OMGG I'm grinning like a fucking chesire cat haha oh god.
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| hahahahahah my rambling thoughts on true blood.. spoilers etc. |
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November 23rd, 2008 @ 11:59pm
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you know what FUCK RENE FOR PUTTING SOOKIE THROUGH THIS. although I guess without rene doing what he's doing then there wouldn't be a plot BUT STILL IT'S KIND OF FUCKED UP AND FOR ONCE i AM SIDING WITH SOOKIE BECAUSE I AM KIND OF DRUNK. but seriously fuck rene I used to like him so much and now he pisses me the fuck off
wait let me take that back I am no longer drunk I just threw up the 2 beers I chugged and probably the whiskey that I can't seem to drink like I used to just two weeks ago. OH MY GOD WHAT THE FUCK IS BILL DOING HE IS GOING TO DIE IN THE SUNNNNNN HOLY SHIT. okay but sookie looks really fucking stupid when she's sobbing ugh. wait I think I missed a part while I was puking I should start it over. so is BILL DEAD OR WHAT THIS IS CRAZY WHY WOULD HE DO THAT MOTHERUFKCER. everyone looks hotter with a black eye. oh my god thank fucking god bill is okay although I think he killed Lafayette. holy shit bill kissing sookie's black eye almost made me cry. okay it did make me cry. maybe I am still kind of tipsy because I never cry sober. okay so here's a real question why do i find detective andy hot. what is it with me an dolder guys. it's disgusting. I am disgusting. holy shit I have to wait until summer to see who's mother fucking goddamn foot taht is. it's only like november. I'm sure it is lafayette's but holy shit goddamn it. fuck it. WHATEVER. okay now I'm gonna watch it again.
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| did I mention I was fired |
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November 20th, 2008 @ 10:36am
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I need a goddamn job. I need a goddamn job. I really need a goddamn job. I need a goddamn job. goddammit. goddammit. goddamn. I need a goddamn, I need a goddamn job.
oh that's funny off with their heads once again knows exactly how I feel
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November 16th, 2008 @ 12:52am
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god it's the fight tonight and also a keg party but I really kind of just want to stay home where it's [somewhat] warm and get high and feel sorry for myself and/or watch movies while listening to chuck ragan because he is awesome.
hahahaha I wrote that earlier I guess I forgot about it. yep that's basically what I did. I watched love song for bobby long which I can't help but watch every time it comes on IFC and I see it which is a lot. ugh. anyway so I've been listening to chuck ragan and tim barry and shit like that and then I found this other guy on myspace and it's almost bordering on [basically it is] country. what the fuck. but yes I'm listening to him over and over [all 2 songs] and I love them. and I really have no idea why I'm writing this. I should be listening to off with their heads talk about spending all your money on drugs and kicking out the chair with your legs cause I want to fucking die today. yeah die today.
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November 9th, 2008 @ 10:50pm
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last night was the revival tour with tim barry and chuck ragan and ben nichols and tom gabel and it was so fuckign amazing. let me tell you. chuck ragan played an alkaline trio song. I'm pretty sure it was bleeder but I can't be too sure because I was very drunk by this point and james doesn't know alkaline trio songs so he just said something about a cigarette. but I do remember everyone singing along and fuck everyone was just so fuckign awesome. tim fuckign barry gave me a hug 3 fuckign times and remembered my name like an hour after I told him or so [he called me miss allison aaaaaaah] and james helped him with his equipment and shit and goddamn he said he'd be back sometime in march or soemthing but hey that's forever away. anyway james and I were right in front and he was so awesome because I left my ID at home so I couldn't buy beer so he kept having to go get me beer and then shove his way back up to where I was. so basically last night was probably one of the best nights of my life.
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| more on this later. |
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November 9th, 2008 @ 11:05am
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tim barry is the coolest motherfucker I have ever met in my life.
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| a thousand hours thinking drinking and wishing that I was a kid again |
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November 6th, 2008 @ 12:50am
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okay I cannot express enough how fucking sick I am of redneck assholes at work making racist comments about obama and how he's going to "grow watermelons at the white house" and "I don't want no nigger running my country" etc etc. this one guy said some shit and I got pissed and said "that's really fucking racist and absolutely ridiculous you don't even know me and are saying shit like that to me what the hell" and he tried to be nice and cover it up and say how sweet I was and how pretty my hair is but what the fuck ever I didn't vote, so I feel like I have no room to say who I think should or shouldn't have won but I am glad it turned out the way it did. and now I kind of wish I wasn't so lazy and did register to vote. I just can't fuckign stand people who are dicks and say shit like "he's gonna get assassinated" blah blah blah. no one is ever happy with anything. I DONT CARE I love this song from this local band from dallas called end this all. I know everything comes to this I don't want this I don't need this I think everything turns to shit I say fuck you I don't need you now. I was in such a shtity mood at work but then I went to the bathroom and listened to this song on my ipod dancing alone and it was awesome and my day got so much better.
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| smoky rooms and uninvited guests |
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November 4th, 2008 @ 11:01am
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I've been in this haze since the weekend I guess I don't really remember much of anything but I think I'm better now. [or am I] you know that feeling when you hear a song you've never heard before and you just think holy shit this is the most amazing song I've ever heard in my entire life and it gives you goosebumps and makes you speechless? and you kind of want to tell everyone but no one at the same time.
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| chocolate milk and chicken tenders |
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October 25th, 2008 @ 2:23am
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okay so this guy I've kind of been flirting with at work for the past few weeks totally gave me his number today and I totally called him and we talked for 3 hours and what the fuck my mouth kind of hurts from this fucking shit eating grin I can't seem to get rid of. he told me how nervous he was and awwwwwww I'm about to gross myself out so nevermind. BUT I knew today was gonna be awesome.
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| your child is dead |
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October 24th, 2008 @ 12:17pm
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I thought I was gonna be really hungover but I kind of feel awesome. however I spent all my money so maybe with my last 7 dollars I should buy scratch offs and see what happens. the ladies at the liquor store know us all too well. they also give us cups of ice which seems like it would be illegal? anyway it's going to be a really good day. I have to go to work 2 - 10 in a little bit and I don't even mind. I have been listening to this album off with their heads - hospitals for the past 3 days on repeat. I am in love with it. I am also in love with red stripe. I'll be staying up late. I'll be fighting off the shakes and puking out the window, repressing things you can never know.
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October 16th, 2008 @ 12:33am
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I knew something had fucking happened. I had that same feeling I had the day we were in that wreck and that morning before I got arrested. I knew it when he didn't answer or even reply to any of my txts but I just assumed he was in jail, so much worse though. I was at work almost sobbing because all I knew was "he was in a wreck and he was taken to the hospital" and not the hospital here, it was one an hour away so I assumed that meant it was fucking serious. my over active goddamn imagination or brain whatever. I was already fucking thinking about what the fuck I was gonna do and of course the tattoo I would get for him. how sad. ANYWAY EVERYTHING IS OKAY I GUESS BUT I HAVENT TALKED TO HIM BUT HE'S GONNA BE ALRIGHT. he wanted a new car anyway.
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October 11th, 2008 @ 5:59pm
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my birthday dinner was fun from what I remember. drank way too much. spent all of my money I had that night plus all of wes's too basically. hahahah. the part I remember most fondly is at the end of the night after chad has been passed out in the back of the car for hours, wes and I going into allsups and standing at the counter laughing hysterically and not being able to breathe and crying and I think we were arguing too? something about buying like 30 dollars worth of scratch offs but then not having money for a water. I don't know. I always feel so bad for the lady that works nights there because she has to put up with us drunk and bickering and acting insane all the fucking time. however she has not called the cops on us yet! so thank you for that.
I won 100 bux on a scratch off! and I found out my license isn't suspended anymore and hasn't been for the past 6 months. I probably should have looked into this before now but whatever, now I know!
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September 11th, 2008 @ 11:57pm
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same fuckin thing every fuckin day. when will I learn and/or grow up???????????///////// oh well!
I just got paid today and I feel like I'm already out of money. but I forgot how much I really love killians irish red. also for the past 3 days I have been lightheaded and dizzy and nauseous all the fucking time. what is wrong with me internet. this is stupid.
oh I forgot to add how totally awesome throwing up at work is!!!1111
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September 1st, 2008 @ 2:14pm
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oh god I just checked my sent mail on myspace. that is hilarious. apparently I've been drunk a lot lately. or maybe just this weekend? I don't remember. and by hilarious I mean embarrassing but by embarrassing I mean I don't really care. holy shit I am still so sore from saturday night. apparently I fell a lot more than I thought I guess. if only I hadn't given away all my hydrocodones. what was I thinking? oh yeah I wasn't. but seriously though don't get drunk at fucking noon and expect to be coherent all day especially when tequila is involved and you never really quit drinking once you start. also my hand FUCKING HURTS SO BAD but I can't write about that on the internet hahayhahaha. ugh I have to work in 3 hours. but some cute guy with tattoos flirted with me yesterday so that was awesome. also after all that bullshit happened the show on saturday was fucking awesome. I had a really good time and met some cool people I'll never see again. probably cause I don't remember.
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| I Know What You Did Last Mother's Day |
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August 27th, 2008 @ 12:18am
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Secretary #1: How was your mother's day?
Secretary #2: Oh, my mother is dead.
Secretary #1: I know. (hyena laugh)
overheardintheoffice.com
it's so funny at work to hear the night people talk shit on the day people. "I'd better get more cups so she doesn't come to work and shit her pants and have to go home and change" I don't know why I thought that was so hilarious but I almost couldn't finish cooking a nasty ass greasy fucking double bacon cheeseburger [is all that meat honestly necessary] because I was lolling so hard. yeah if I saw the person making my burger laughing hysterically I would probably just leave and not get it. but I would love to hear what shit they talk about me. though actually they always tell me I'm doing a really good job, better than anyone has in a while. apparently lots of people before me that had my job sucked and couldn't do shit. not that its hard. I don't care anyway the point is I am in love with the sainte catherines thanks to this one cute boy from florida.
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